Sadness Builds Happiness

ErinThe Big Picture16 Comments

Okay, new rule: sadness is just happiness in its infancy. I feel really grumpy tonight. I’m pouting, scowling, slouching, and making one killer grimace. I feel really angry about a lot of stuff. It feels like such a waste of time but I’m going to make it acceptable by believing it’s going turning into something better. Yes, the time has come to … Read More

ErinSadness Builds Happiness

Antidepressant Withdrawal Hell

ErinMedication32 Comments

I feel terrible. I have what feels like the flu: nausea, muscle aches, nerve pain, tremors, hot and cold flashes, weakness, and lethargy. It’s lasted all month. The cause? I cut down my antidepressant by a measly 3mg. I don’t normally name my antidepressants on this blog, because meds affect everyone differently, but I’m naming this culprit: Cymbalta. I’ve been … Read More

ErinAntidepressant Withdrawal Hell

Good-Bye Smarch, Hello Smapril

ErinDay-to-Day Life9 Comments

Yay I’m writing!! *HUGS* It isn’t Smarch anymore, it’s Smapril, but you officially have my permission to add make up your own words (or steal from The Simpsons) until it stops snowing. Smarch sucked! And Smapril is off to a crappy start, but hey, we’re still here. Today’s post is all about finding the small things to keep you going … Read More

ErinGood-Bye Smarch, Hello Smapril

A SWAT Team of Butterflies to Take Your Storm Clouds Away

ErinSurvival13 Comments

I have so much to tell you! I feel stifled and so alone. I can’t focus and all I can write about is how much pain I’m in physically and emotionally, how tired I am, and how lost I feel. And just thinking about those things makes them worse. I am really really struggling. It’s time to get creative. Get … Read More

ErinA SWAT Team of Butterflies to Take Your Storm Clouds Away

Beating Depression Through Art

ErinCraft Projects10 Comments

I always talk about starting small when you’re overwhelmed, doing something you love even if your depression has taken the fun out of it. I’ve been feeling so awful lately that I figured it was time to put some of my own advice into practice. I decided to do the simplest art project I could think of: colouring. I found a … Read More

ErinBeating Depression Through Art

Hello, I’m Here

ErinDay-to-Day Life32 Comments

I’m here! This feels like a miracle. I’ve been struggling a lot to function at a bare minimum. About four days ago my Internet died at home and I’ve been too depressed to do anything about it. But tonight, finally, I dragged myself to Tim Hortons and connected to their Wi-Fi and now I am blogging. YES! I know I’m … Read More

ErinHello, I’m Here

We Are All Constantly Changing

ErinDay-to-Day Life24 Comments

Lately my life feels so messy, like pieces of me are just spilling all over into places I never intended for them to go. I feel like I’m giving too much in places and not enough in others; I feel like my body is betraying my mind and that my mind is shattering into pieces. I’m crying more and sharing … Read More

ErinWe Are All Constantly Changing

Songs for Surviving Depression

ErinMusic15 Comments

Sometimes, when depression is weighing you down like the heaviest anchor in the sea, all you have is the sound of the waves to comfort yourself. Or other sounds, like a song, even if it’s sad or depressing. Because you know depression is real, and if depression is real then you are real. Here’s a song I’ve been listening to all week. … Read More

ErinSongs for Surviving Depression

Six Reasons I Stopped Cutting Myself

ErinSelf-Injury38 Comments

People keep finding my blog when they’re ready to self-injure but decide to search for help instead of engaging in cutting themselves. My words help them stay safe. I could not be happier about this. Stopping self-injury is one of my proudest achievements. I tend to get nervous sometimes, worried that I’ll slip back into hurting myself if something really … Read More

ErinSix Reasons I Stopped Cutting Myself

Depression and Migraine Update

ErinChronic Pain, Day-to-Day Life23 Comments

I haven’t felt like myself for over a month now. My depression and migraines seem to be ricocheting off each other, playing a game of “Let’s explode Erin’s head!” The migraine pain is seriously cutting in on me doing my favourite activities. Strain on my eyes makes my head ache even worse, so I’m avoiding using my laptop, watching movies, reading, … Read More

ErinDepression and Migraine Update