A New Room in Depression Recovery

ErinThe Big Picture35 Comments

I miss writing here. Forgive me for being quiet lately; I don’t feel like myself. Over a month ago, I wrote about deciding to go off my antidepressants to see if doing so could help my migraines. I’m playing a confusing game of cat and mouse, trading one pain for another. On one hand, I feel like I’m getting somewhere, … Read More

ErinA New Room in Depression Recovery

When Someone You Love Decides to Die from Suicide

ErinSurvival18 Comments

Someone in my extended family died by suicide ten days ago. I’m really really upset. I loved this family member very very much, but I couldn’t afford the $1000 plane ticket to go to his funeral. I feel so guilty for not being physically there to pay my respects. To grieve. And I feel so guilty because I thought I was this … Read More

ErinWhen Someone You Love Decides to Die from Suicide

Macaroni: Spotted in Real Life

ErinLocal Events, The Big Picture13 Comments

It happened. Just like a dream, except real. The Universe delivered me a pearl of hope in my favourite sports car. No one has approached me since my recent post where I asked you to say hello if you saw me in public. The incentive for you to say hello was an offer of a free Daisies and Bruises button from … Read More

ErinMacaroni: Spotted in Real Life

Future Fears

ErinThe Big Picture7 Comments

In these past few years, my Facebook feed has slowly become not about my friends’ lives, but the lives of their children. I used to do a double-take when a friend’s profile pic showed them suddenly thirty years younger than they were the day before, but now I sigh and say, “Another baby.” What’s really weird is when you are … Read More

ErinFuture Fears

Bell Let’s Talk: Mental Illness is Different for Everyone

ErinStigma4 Comments

It’s taken me an incredibly long time to tell my story and speak up about mental illness. Whenever the media catches wind of mental health concerns, I remember how bitter I used to feel when I saw and heard other people could sharing their personal stories. For sixteen years of my life, I hadn’t known that the pain I felt … Read More

ErinBell Let’s Talk: Mental Illness is Different for Everyone

What Does Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Feel Like?

ErinSymptoms and Side-Effects4 Comments

What does it feel like to have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (or PTSD)? This is what it feels like for me on a bad day: It’s never ever feeling safe. It’s never taking a full breath of air in your lungs. It’s the feeling of walking barefoot over glass, except the feeling is all over your body every time you leave … Read More

ErinWhat Does Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Feel Like?

A Good Secret Gone Bad

ErinLife Events11 Comments

“Secrets keep you sick.” I’ve heard that phrase a few times in treatment and it’s really stuck with me. It’s something I say a lot, to both myself and others, but up until recently I thought it only applied to “bad” secrets. Like, not telling people in my life about my depression kept me really sick for a long time. … Read More

ErinA Good Secret Gone Bad

Why I Cannot Give Personal Advice Over Email

ErinBlog Maintenance6 Comments

I WANT TO HELP YOU. Every single one of you. I want to help every person on the planet because every person on the planet deserves help. And this world, it’s a giant ball of pain. And I am so fortunate. I’ve had access to many forms of mental health treatment. I’ve always had a doctor (if not the best … Read More

ErinWhy I Cannot Give Personal Advice Over Email

Halloween Trauma Triggers

ErinThe Big Picture10 Comments

I am proud to say that readers from around the world visit and subscribe to Daisies and Bruises. Mental health is a universal issue, so I’m hoping even a few advanced alien species pick up on my site now and then. So if you’re reading from somewhere that doesn’t celebrate Halloween, here’s a link to explain the traditions and celebrations … Read More

ErinHalloween Trauma Triggers

Little Matchstick Girl

ErinSurvival7 Comments

Sometimes I write an upbeat blog post, not because that’s how I feel all the time, but because it’s how I feel for a moment. For a moment, the other day, I thought, “Hell yes, I’m rocking my unhappiness!” And then later, when I inevitably feel weak again, I can go back to my blog and read up on how … Read More

ErinLittle Matchstick Girl