Meeting George Stroumboulopoulos: Part Two

In case you missed Meeting George Stroumboulopoulos: Part One, I was invited along to the mindyourmind interview with the Canadian radio/tv star George Stroumboulopoulos on Friday, but I almost didn’t go. I was having a bad day and felt like staying at home and hiding from the world. Instead, I just made myself go because you can’t have great experiences if you don’t leave the house. Little did I know that meeting George would exceed my expectations and be just what I needed after all.

So, around 5:00, Diana (mindyourmind staff), Oline (volunteer) and I (volunteer) piled into Diana’s car and drove to Fanshawe College to interview George at 6:00. Around 6:20 one of the set-up crew members told us we’d probably only have five minutes with George because they had to do a sound check. That was disappointing to hear and so we quickly moved the film equipment to a nearby classroom that happened to be unlocked. At least that way, even a short interview would have fewer distractions and noise in the background. I realized I left my cellphone in my coat pocket on our chairs out front so I ran to get it. On the way back I could see that George had arrived and was doing a quick interview with Rogers TV. Minutes later it was our turn.

George walked into the room with such ease that I thought he was someone from the set-up crew again. I hadn’t expected him to come in solo, but there he was, shaking our hands and repeating our names once he heard them. He actually missed my name at first and so I repeated, “Erin” and thought to myself how cool it was that he actually made sure he’d gotten my name right. He said that he could chat until it was time to go on stage!

First of all he said that he was really happy to do the interview because mental illness is present in the lives of those he cares about, and from his short descriptions I knew he spoke our language. There’s a difference between those that have learned about mental illness through media and those of us who have experienced or witnessed it firsthand.

As George began to answer the interview questions my emotions changed rapidly: curiosity turned into anticipation which turned into awe. Then I was just dumbstruck because it was like he was talking to just me. Of course he was answering Oline’s questions and looking at all of us, and the camera, but his answers were so deep and all-encompassing. He wasn’t talking about mental illness, he was talking about the human condition, and what we need to do to help ourselves and help those around us. It felt like he was speaking to just me because I have been so thirsty for advice lately. Good advice, advice that acknowledges the pain in the world while holding on to hope and encouragement.

I was supposed to be tweeting on account but I couldn’t keep up with the wisdom George shared. Every single thing he said was impressive. “I’ve never seen a surfer try to control a wave,” he said when speaking about goals and the future. When he said that people can feel so ashamed of what’s happened in their lives but it isn’t their fault my eyes welled up with tears, despite my effort to hold them back. I could see that Diana was affected the same way.

It wasn’t just that George Stroumboulopoulos was a celebrity giving an exclusive interview. Here was a man who in his short 39 years of life had interviewed everyone from Margaret Atwood to Sarah Palin to Theo Fleury and had an equal amount of compassion and respect for them all. He didn’t have one bad word to say about anyone. Oh and guess who was his favourite interview of all time? KERMIT THE FROG. Beat that!

Our friend Pete from Miko Productions filmed the interview and I will post it here once it’s finished being edited. I could go on gushing and paraphrasing George’s wisdom but I really want to you to experience it direct from the source. I guarantee you’re going to be as blown away as I am.

When the interview was over we took a picture for the mindyourmind wall of fame and I gave George a button I’d made with my business card. He was so enthused about the pin (it said “Just Follow the Music”) that he asked me to pin it on his collar so he could wear it on stage. Diana gave him her business card and he said that he wants to do everything he can to support mindyourmind because we are doing such important work.

The interview he gave onstage to the crowd of 200-odd people was great but it didn’t move me the way that the first interview had, possibly because I am not familiar with the radio/broadcasting world. He answered questions from the audience after that, giving advice and the odd hug to those who asked.

In the end I didn’t tell George the story that I’d planned on sharing. After all, I didn’t expect him to be that compassionate and encouraging; I had that story up my sleeve only to break the ice.

So what was the story? When I was seventeen I took a trip to Toronto with my friend Shawna. After paying for something at Urban Outfitters, I turned around to see George Stroumboulopoulos in line behind me. I stared, dumbstruck, as I tried to figure out where I recognized him from. It plagued me for the rest of the day. Eventually I just assumed that I knew him from the hospital, because anyone I knew that was older than me was from the hospital. I’d spent weeks on the psych ward and all the faces blurred together. So I went on thinking he was a mental patient like me until I saw him on MuchMusic as a VJ.

Shawna and I laughed about that story for a while and I’d vowed to tell George that story if I ever ran into him. As his career morphed into bigger and better things, like hosting his own talk show, I learned that he truly appreciated a great story. But when I finally did get to meet him on Friday, his understanding towards all walks of life made me understand that I don’t have to poke fun at myself to make my story count. I can’t say for sure but I doubt he’d be embarrassed if I told him I once mistook him for a mental patient like me. Maybe in response he would have just said, “Cool.”  Or else, “I’m so glad that we’re both doing better.”

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Meeting George Stroumboulopoulos: Part One

This time Friday morning I was bawling. I’d decided to try writing morning pages, after picking up Julia Cameron’s legendary book, . In short, free writing three pages every morning is supposed to clear your mind of your self-criticism and open your mind to its creative channels. So I did that yesterday, and somehow all the positive feelings I’d experienced the day before – my birthday – melted away and I found myself crying, wondering why I always seem to end up feeling like life is trying to keep me cold and alone, punished for my pain.

Fortunately, I had an appointment with my therapist at 1pm yesterday but even after talking to her for over an hour I still felt terrible. I actually felt worse than I had before I went. I was so anxious on my walk home that I took one of my ‘emergency’ prn-medication pills to calm myself down. (As a side note, my psychiatrist would be happy to hear that I actually took that medication because I tend to avoid using it. It makes me sleepy and slow-witted)

Back at my apartment, I laid on the couch and decided to text my friends at mindyourmind to tell them that I couldn’t attend that night’s interview with George Stroumboulopoulos. I felt too broken, too fucked-up and too tired to pretend that everything was okay. Before I could message them, however, I remembered how excited I was the night before when I learned that I could tag along to the interview. I’d jumped around the apartment, scaring the crap out of my dog, doing this giddy little dance.

Anyone who knows me knows that I don’t swoon over celebrities and I refuse to follow tabloids or watch reality tv. The only famous person I’ve ever been super excited to meet was Joyce Carol Oates. But George Stroumboulopoulos is someone I have a huge amount of respect for. He’s a Canadian icon  (and self-confessed boyfriend to all his fans) who interviews celebrities, politicians, writers, and newsmakers, by being a great listener and asking the questions that need to be asked.

So, right before I canceled my plans to stay home and cry, I thought to myself, JUST FUCKING GO. Yes, I still felt a bit loopy from my medication, yes I’d been crying all day, and yes, it was way too cold out, but I had nothing to lose. I wasn’t even going to be part of the interview, I was just going to watch. What’s the worst that could happen? I knew it was the chance of a lifetime, and I did have a story I wanted to tell George. With enough makeup I hid my puffy eyes and made my way out of the house in time to catch the latest bus to take me to mindyourmind.

Getting out of my apartment and having a place to be by a certain time got me out of  my funk. By the time I arrived at the mindyourmind office to grab a ride to the night’s venue, Fanshawe College, my sadness was starting to melt. Then I got a lovely surprise when Heather at mindyourmind introduced me to Deana, a street team volunteer that is a fan of my blog. She wanted to meet me when she heard I’d be coming in! My first fan I got to meet in real life! That alone totally made my day.

I met up with the two other women doing the interview with me, Diana and Oline. We piled into Diana’s car and headed to meet up with George.

- TO BE CONTINUED!

Young Health Program Launch

Yesterday I participated in AstraZeneca’s Young Health Program Launch at mindyourmind from a unique perspective. My friend Amanda and I were the greeters, sitting at a table just inside the door armed with carefully prepared lanyards of awesomeness, multicoloured sharpies, and parking vouchers. Each person that came through the door was given the 411 about the lanyard (it had a thumnail drive!), the evening, and where to put their coats.

I wasn’t feeling quite like myself due to a bad psychiatry appointment that morning but as usual, as soon as I was given a job to do that required me to look confident I began to feel more confident. It was interesting to meet people as they came through the door, making small talk and then later realizing that they were one of the major speakers that evening.

My favourite speaker was Dr. Bruce Ferguson. The perspective he shared really made me trust that he knows how to work with youth from experience, not from reading a book or saying what he thinks he is supposed to say. This line of his moved me enough for me to tweet it the moment I heard it: “”Young people run on hope the way cars run on gas.”

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Me and mindyourmind

I am writing today’s post from the mindyourmind.ca office, my old workplace. I’m back as a volunteer for a few hours a week because I love the staff here and the work that mindyourmind does. We joke that mindyourmind is like the mob – once you’re in you can’t leave!

It was an extremely hard decision for me to leave mindyourmind as an employee because I truly loved my job. I left for a few reasons, one being that both living with a mental illness and working in a place that deals with mental illness was too much. Sometimes what we’d talk about at work would really trigger me but for the sake of my job I felt like I had to pretend I was fine. I know that my coworkers would truly would have understood me being triggered, but I didn’t want to be this flake at work, always having my emotions get in the way of doing my job. I’m such a perfectionist and I didn’t want to be seen as unprofessional. Plus, I had therapy appointments two (sometimes three) days a week and therapy is HARD WORK. I felt like I had two jobs I was constantly juggling, both having to do with mental health.

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