It’s handy when negative thinking patterns come up against something as obvious as the seasons changing because it highlights them as faulty beliefs. Obviously, spring has to come. The planet would basically have to stop circling the sun for spring not to come this year. Spring IS coming!
While I’m staying quiet about the details for now, I’ll tell you that my new zine is doing very well since its release last weekend. I am both excited and anxious, two feelings that are virtually the same when it comes to our body’s internal reaction. Pounding heart, butterflies in my stomach, shallow breathing. But even though anxiety and excitement can overlap, I keep reminding myself that I am excited. It’s a good feeling, a positive feeling for once. I am hanging on to it.
Part of my experience with trauma and depression as a whole means that I don’t trust good news, good things, good weather, et cetera. But good always comes if you wait long enough. The seasons will keep turning, even if it feels like they won’t. Remember, feelings aren’t facts! If you’ve had a season of bad weather both literally and figuratively, remember that spring always comes.
I can’t resist adding a dog picture to this vague post. I never thought I’d get a good picture of both Digby and Milo together (they never stop moving!), but low and behold, I got one over the weekend. Never say never.
I’ll be back to more regular mental-health-centric posts once my therapist is back from her March Break vacation next week. Until then, I’m going to bask in the sunlight, even if it is still cold outside. Try doing the same and let me know how it goes!