Spring Always Comes

digbyandmiloWe made it to daylight savings time, but South-Western Ontario got a fresh dump of snow and wintry winds along with it. Yesterday I caught myself thinking, “What if Spring never comes?”

It’s handy when negative thinking patterns come up against something as obvious as the seasons changing because it highlights them as faulty beliefs.  Obviously, spring has to come. The planet would basically have to stop circling the sun for spring not to come this year.  Spring IS coming!

While I’m staying quiet about the details for now, I’ll tell you that my new zine is doing very well since its release last weekend. I am both excited and anxious, two feelings that are virtually the same when it comes to our body’s internal reaction. Pounding heart, butterflies in my stomach, shallow breathing. But even though anxiety and excitement can overlap, I keep reminding myself that I am excited. It’s a good feeling, a positive feeling for once. I am hanging on to it.

Part of my experience with trauma and depression as a whole means that I don’t trust good news, good things, good weather, et cetera. But good always comes if you wait long enough. The seasons will keep turning, even if it feels like they won’t. Remember, feelings aren’t facts! If you’ve had a season of bad weather both literally and figuratively, remember that spring always comes.

I can’t resist adding a dog picture to this vague post. I never thought I’d get a good picture of both Digby and Milo together (they never stop moving!), but low and behold, I got one over the weekend. Never say never.

I’ll be back to more regular mental-health-centric posts once my therapist is back from her March Break vacation next week. Until then, I’m going to bask in the sunlight, even if it is still cold outside. Try doing the same and let me know how it goes!

Making This Summer Count

With school out and this being a long weekend here in Canada, summer has truly arrived! Yay!

The past few summers have flown by for me. It’s like I have this idea that summer fun will find me on its own, but before I know it the leaves are changing colour again and I’m shocked.

So this summer is going to be different because I’m going to make it different. Having depression means that it’s harder for me to have fun than it is for other people, but I believe if I plan it out I can make it happen.

During these last days of June I’ve been writing a mini list of things to start doing for July. It’s great to start fresh at the beginning of a new month. If I start now, maybe my life won’t feel as shaken up when my therapist goes on vacation halfway through the month.

Summer in my life has always meant being outdoors, even when it feels “too hot.” As a kid I would cool down in summer by swimming, eating popsicles, and hanging out in the shade. So this summer, I’m going to try to spend at least an hour outside every day.

I do already spend an hour outside every day but it’s spent walking from one place to the next, stressing about life and not taking in the weather. So, to be more specific I’m going to say that I need to spend an hour outside every day with my butt parked in the grass or on my bicycle for a leisurely ride. The breeze generated by flying downhill on my bike does wonders to cool me off, too!

A simple way of making summer last longer is to not sleep in so late. I have a bad habit of making my days “easier” by being awake for less hours than most people, but it really isn’t a healthy thing for me to do. Plus, it’s cooler outside in the mornings, so I can reach my goal of spending more time outdoors if I get up earlier.

I usually feel good about my day if I get some writing done, whether it’s a blog post entry or writing in my journal or writing snail mail, so I’m going to try to work that into my days as well this month.

These things don’t sound too hard but on my bad days I know I’m going to say “Screw it” so easily. I’m thinking of pairing these goals together with other things I enjoy doing. Like I could get a drink at Starbucks before sitting outside for an hour, to make it feel like even more of a treat, at least until I get into the swing of things.

What about you? What makes a good summer in your life?

Do you have any tips on how to combat the days where we all want to say, “Screw it” and pull the covers over our heads?

Share your answers in the comments, maybe we can find a way to outsmart our excuses and let the sun shine in.

Coping while Your Therapist Is on Vacation

I should have written about therapists going on vacation at the beginning of the summer so this post could be more helpful, but my therapist’s vacation is starting today and so it only crossed my mind to write about now.

It’s fair to say that I always have a hard time when my therapist goes away on vacation. It used to bring me to tears – and still sometimes does – but I’ve figured out a few tips to keep my head above water for my few weeks without a life jacket.

1. Make it Your Vacation Too

Sure, we can’t exactly take a vacation from our mental health issues, but we can look at the therapy break as a good thing. When was the last time you were bored and said, “Oh, I know what would be fun: THERAPY!”  Yeah, it isn’t a walk in the park and although it can be comforting and reassuring, therapy is not fun. There is a board game called “Therapy” though, and somehow it sells. Anyway, if you miss therapy THAT much, play the board game. Otherwise, focus on giving yourself a treatment break and have some fun. Fun can be a foreign word to those with depression but it’s just as important as anything else in life, if not more important. If you’re stuck for ideas, hang out with a little kid for a while. They don’t know how not to have fun!

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