A SWAT Team of Butterflies to Take Your Storm Clouds Away

ErinSurvival13 Comments

I have so much to tell you! I feel stifled and so alone. I can’t focus and all I can write about is how much pain I’m in physically and emotionally, how tired I am, and how lost I feel. And just thinking about those things makes them worse. I am really really struggling. It’s time to get creative. Get … Read More

ErinA SWAT Team of Butterflies to Take Your Storm Clouds Away

Hello, I’m Here

ErinDay-to-Day Life32 Comments

I’m here! This feels like a miracle. I’ve been struggling a lot to function at a bare minimum. About four days ago my Internet died at home and I’ve been too depressed to do anything about it. But tonight, finally, I dragged myself to Tim Hortons and connected to their Wi-Fi and now I am blogging. YES! I know I’m … Read More

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My Emmy-Winning Heart

ErinLife Events, News Stories17 Comments

What cures depression? Is it fame, fortune? This is what I know: HEART.¬†Heart is the only thing that beats depression. This morning I woke up to a donation to Daisies and Bruises. PayPal alerted me with a chime on my phone. Next I saw a text from Jackie at HealthiNation: our videos won an Emmy last night! A few moments … Read More

ErinMy Emmy-Winning Heart

Hope in Fighting Depression

ErinSurvival, The Big Picture14 Comments

I have a cool story for you about surviving my depression: A few days before Jackie arrived from HealthiNation to film me, I bustled around London, Ontario full of energy and excitement. I ran errands, cleaned my apartment, made crafts, and generally felt fantastic. On the walk home from my closest bus stop, I thought to myself, “This feels awesome! … Read More

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Great News for My Winter Survival

ErinLife Events, Local Events, The Big Picture11 Comments

Oh my goodness, I am so excited! I want to tell you everything all at once, but no, I need to tell you the whole story for you to feel its impact and its overall awesomeness. Two weeks ago I was in complete turmoil. Someone in London’s mental health community had sent me information about a job they thought I … Read More

ErinGreat News for My Winter Survival

Surviving This Ocean of Grief

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Last week I told my therapist that I feel like I’m just treading water, constantly. It’s so much work to keep my head above the dark ocean beneath me. I see no sandbars I can swim to; I see no ships on the horizon that might come to save me. I just keep moving my arms and legs, and focus … Read More

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Future Fears

ErinThe Big Picture7 Comments

In these past few years, my Facebook feed has slowly become not about my friends’ lives, but the lives of their children. I used to do a double-take when a friend’s profile pic showed them suddenly thirty years younger than they were the day before, but now I sigh and say, “Another baby.” What’s really weird is when you are … Read More

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Bell Let’s Talk: Mental Illness is Different for Everyone

ErinStigma4 Comments

It’s taken me an incredibly long time to tell my story and speak up about mental illness. Whenever the media catches wind of mental health concerns, I remember how bitter I used to feel when I saw and heard other people could sharing their personal stories. For sixteen years of my life, I hadn’t known that the pain I felt … Read More

ErinBell Let’s Talk: Mental Illness is Different for Everyone

Defining ‘The Art of Living With Depression’

ErinThe Big Picture7 Comments

Since writing my Good Things Jar post with my video tutorial, I’ve been thinking about art and its connection to this blog. Before I started Daisies and Bruises, I knew I wanted to write about art and depression, because they are two things I’m passionate about. Art has been a key instrument in my battle with depression, and I wanted … Read More

ErinDefining ‘The Art of Living With Depression’

What Does Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Feel Like?

ErinSymptoms and Side-Effects4 Comments

What does it feel like to have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (or PTSD)? This is what it feels like for me on a bad day: It’s never ever feeling safe. It’s never taking a full breath of air in your lungs. It’s the feeling of walking barefoot over glass, except the feeling is all over your body every time you leave … Read More

ErinWhat Does Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Feel Like?