When Someone You Love Decides to Die from Suicide

ErinSurvival18 Comments

Someone in my extended family died by suicide ten days ago. I’m really really upset. I loved this family member very very much, but I couldn’t afford the $1000 plane ticket to go to his funeral. I feel so guilty for not being physically there to pay my respects. To grieve. And I feel so guilty because I thought I was this … Read More

ErinWhen Someone You Love Decides to Die from Suicide

Hello, I’m Here

ErinDay-to-Day Life32 Comments

I’m here! This feels like a miracle. I’ve been struggling a lot to function at a bare minimum. About four days ago my Internet died at home and I’ve been too depressed to do anything about it. But tonight, finally, I dragged myself to Tim Hortons and connected to their Wi-Fi and now I am blogging. YES! I know I’m … Read More

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When You Grow Up Your Heart Dies, So Fuck It

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On the first day of Grade Nine, I started high school with drama class, only we didn’t talk about drama. First, we talked about this student from a few years ago who killed himself in his first year of high school. Because of his death, our school started The Breakfast Club. With a clear reference to the legendary movie, The … Read More

ErinWhen You Grow Up Your Heart Dies, So Fuck It

Surviving This Ocean of Grief

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Last week I told my therapist that I feel like I’m just treading water, constantly. It’s so much work to keep my head above the dark ocean beneath me. I see no sandbars I can swim to; I see no ships on the horizon that might come to save me. I just keep moving my arms and legs, and focus … Read More

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My Support Wheel

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Remember how I declared 2013 as an “Art Year” for Daisies and Bruises? Well, I did some drawing for you this morning and ended up with this wagon wheel to illustrate this post. Yay! I’ve talked about a wagon wheel representing my support system before, way back in 2011. I’m at the center of the wheel and each spoke represents … Read More

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Lightning Strike

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The last week has been rough for me and I’m finding it difficult to write with my normal amount of courage. I feel momentarily silenced. Those of you that know me well know that I rarely ever reach out for help. Out of the twenty plus times I’ve been in the ER for mental health reasons in the past twelve … Read More

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