Sadness Builds Happiness

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Okay, new rule: sadness is just happiness in its infancy. I feel really grumpy tonight. I’m pouting, scowling, slouching, and making one killer grimace. I feel really angry about a lot of stuff. It feels like such a waste of time but I’m going to make it acceptable by believing it’s going turning into something better. Yes, the time has come to … Read More

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A New Room in Depression Recovery

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I miss writing here. Forgive me for being quiet lately; I don’t feel like myself. Over a month ago, I wrote about deciding to go off my antidepressants to see if doing so could help my migraines. I’m playing a confusing game of cat and mouse, trading one pain for another. On one hand, I feel like I’m getting somewhere, … Read More

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Celebrating 2015 & Having Hope for the Future

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Raise your hand if 2015 went exactly as planned. Yeah, me neither! I was sure this was going to be MY year where I accomplished or at least set off on my biggest life dreams. Instead I spent 90% of the year on the couch with an ice pack on my head trying to balance my migraines alongside my mental … Read More

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Why I Hand Out Daisies and Bruises Buttons to Strangers

ErinDay-to-Day Life, My Art, The Big Picture11 Comments

I feel alone and invisible a lot. It’s part of having depression and I think it’s also part of just who I am. I spend so much time in my head that I forget to interact with the outside world, and then when I don’t have any interaction for a while, I feel like no one notices me. When really, … Read More

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Depression Hurts but Kindness Lives

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I’d like to introduce you to the blue thing on my head. His name is Ice Pack Hat. Ice Pack Hat, meet my blog readers. It’s about time that you met. Ice Pack Hat lives on my head to help ease my constant migraines. My blog readers live in my heart. Both my heart and head still hurt, though, a lot. It’s … Read More

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Hope in Fighting Depression

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I have a cool story for you about surviving my depression: A few days before Jackie arrived from HealthiNation to film me, I bustled around London, Ontario full of energy and excitement. I ran errands, cleaned my apartment, made crafts, and generally felt fantastic. On the walk home from my closest bus stop, I thought to myself, “This feels awesome! … Read More

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The Spoon Theory and My Blog

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Have you heard about the Spoon Theory? Ever since my friend Inali linked me to it about a year ago, I talk about spoons all the time. I really recommend reading that post, so please check it out! Go read it. In short, spoons are a metaphor for units of energy. When you have depression or another illness or disability, … Read More

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Great News for My Winter Survival

ErinLife Events, Local Events, The Big Picture11 Comments

Oh my goodness, I am so excited! I want to tell you everything all at once, but no, I need to tell you the whole story for you to feel its impact and its overall awesomeness. Two weeks ago I was in complete turmoil. Someone in London’s mental health community had sent me information about a job they thought I … Read More

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You Matter and There is hope

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Sometimes I cross paths with another person when I’m out in the world, and they make an impression on me. For a fleeting instant, I see something in their eyes or their actions that tells me that they are in pain. It often happens on the days that I’m feeling a lot of pain. I never know the stranger’s circumstance, … Read More

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The Full Weight of Depression

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To someone who doesn’t know what depression is like, I think of those heavy vests they put on you when you get an x-ray. It’s a weight that blankets your whole body that you have to wear everywhere you go, all the time. Depression can feel like it should be there. Like you deserve the weight you carry. It lets … Read More

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