My Heart Broken and Entered

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I need to tell you what happened. It’s part of healing, telling your story. This story is hard to tell. I’ve had two major blows to my heart in the last month. First, my family dog, Milo, suddenly died. When my dad called me to tell me, I screamed and pounded the walls, dove onto my bed and wailed, “WHY!?!?” … Read More

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My Emmy-Winning Heart

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What cures depression? Is it fame, fortune? This is what I know: HEART. Heart is the only thing that beats depression. This morning I woke up to a donation to Daisies and Bruises. PayPal alerted me with a chime on my phone. Next I saw a text from Jackie at HealthiNation: our videos won an Emmy last night! A few moments … Read More

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When You Grow Up Your Heart Dies, So Fuck It

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On the first day of Grade Nine, I started high school with drama class, only we didn’t talk about drama. First, we talked about this student from a few years ago who killed himself in his first year of high school. Because of his death, our school started The Breakfast Club. With a clear reference to the legendary movie, The … Read More

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HealthiNation True Champions Video: Me and Depression

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A few weeks ago, Jackie, a producer from HealthiNation, flew from New York to film me as a “True Champion” of depression. For three days Jackie filmed my life. Chris from Toronto came up for one day to film the main interview while Jackie asked me questions. Then they each went home and I’ve lived frozen in fear, literally sick to my stomach thinking about … Read More

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Great News for My Winter Survival

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Oh my goodness, I am so excited! I want to tell you everything all at once, but no, I need to tell you the whole story for you to feel its impact and its overall awesomeness. Two weeks ago I was in complete turmoil. Someone in London’s mental health community had sent me information about a job they thought I … Read More

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Me in My Teen Years

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We’re about to hit the mid-mark of August and I know school is suddenly on everyone’s minds again. So, I was thinking of posting about what I was like as a teenager over the next few weeks. Because I have not always been as confident as I appear on this blog. No way. I hated myself in high school for not … Read More

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A Good Secret Gone Bad

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“Secrets keep you sick.” I’ve heard that phrase a few times in treatment and it’s really stuck with me. It’s something I say a lot, to both myself and others, but up until recently I thought it only applied to “bad” secrets. Like, not telling people in my life about my depression kept me really sick for a long time. … Read More

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One Door Closes, Another Opens

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I’ve spent the last 24 hours in solitude, quietly experiencing the closing of 2012 and reflecting on what the year has meant to me. With the opening of 2013, I feel somber but strong. I almost didn’t make it through 2012. Two days after my Depression Cake post I ended up in the hospital because I was close to committing … Read More

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Self-harm & Tattoos

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(This post talks about self-injury. Though I never write about what I find to be triggering, I do advise self-harmers to read this post with caution. If it is triggering you, stop reading or sit with someone who helps you feel safe. ) I have a consultation for a new tattoo on Thursday and I’m super excited. This will be … Read More

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I Miss You

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I must admit that things are pretty crappy right now. I can count my current woes on my fingers but I still feel some secret hope that I can’t quite identify. Perhaps it is spring. Today we’re back into daylight savings time, thank God. That is a sure sign of spring, isn’t it? It’s something we can trust. I keep … Read More

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