My Final Post on Daisies and Bruises

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This is an immensely difficult post for me to write. The time has come for me to say good-bye to Daisies and Bruises.

The recent break in to my apartment has changed my trust in the world in a way that will take a long time to heal. As a result of that incident, I no longer have the tools I once had to write this blog at the calibre it deserves.

I need to stop trying to save the world and save myself. I will always keep writing, but as I heal from this intrusion, fiction is where I feel safest.

As unjust as everything feels at the moment, I believe life is in the right. This will take me to places I am meant to go.

I pass the torch on to you. Five years ago, no one said to me, “Hey, you have what it takes to be a mental health blogger.” I just decided to go for it. The beauty of creativity is that it gives us the power to define ourselves.

This blog itself will remain live until the domain name runs out in just under a year. Maybe my past posts will still help someone in the meantime.

Thank you for all the love and support throughout the years. I feel very sad at this time, but I don’t believe this is a final good-bye. Our paths will cross again. Perhaps in a book store in a few years. You’ll wait in line to have me sign your book, or maybe it will be the other way around. Maybe you’ll recognize me and ask if I once wrote a blog, or if the word “macaroni” makes any sense to me. And I will give you the world’s biggest hug.

I miss you already, but I’m trusting in life. In the words of Miranda July,

“I feel brave when I take wild leaps into the unknown – it should be that I take wild leaps because I am brave, but no, I take them because I’m afraid, and then actually leaping makes me brave.”

If you want to follow my artistic life, check to see if I’m alive, or support me as an artist, you can (still) find me on Instagram as @scissorkix or view/purchase my art at Scissorkix.etsy.com. I’ve created a lot of new magical things in the past little while and soon you will find them for sale in my Etsy shop.

I miss you and love you and wish you all the best in this unpredictably lovely world we live in.

*HUGS FOREVER*

Love Erin

ErinMy Final Post on Daisies and Bruises

22 Comments on “My Final Post on Daisies and Bruises”

  1. Panda

    Hey Erin
    Thank you so much for your dedication to this blog. It’s such a helpful resource and you’re an incredibly inspiring person. Often reading the posts helped me feel normal during a lifetime of alienating, confusing experiences – they were so important and validating especially coming from “one of us”.

    While it sucks that you’re going, its good that you’re doing what’s right for you. So thanks again – please take care of your amazing self and maybe I’ll have the luck to meet you and thank you in person in the future.

    Arohanui Na Aotearoa (New Zealand)

    Panda

  2. stancie

    Erin I am so sorry to hear this. I know very well what you are going through. My husband isn’t able to dj right now because of our house being burglarized a couple of years ago. Take care of yourself, and this is coming from someone who has suffered with depression and anxiety for over 10 years. I know the day to day struggle of trying to have mental peace.

    Sincerely,
    Stancie

  3. J

    Love you too, Erin. I will miss you, but I admire your strength, depth of sensitivity to beauty, and courage, and your acceptance of this change into what’s new, beautiful and good for you in your life is something I shall hold and cherish. <3 Hugs to you too.

  4. kinnery

    as much as i’ll miss your blog posts, i am so so proud of you for making the decision to really focus on yourself. you are one of the bravest people i have ever known. you’ve shared so much of your story, and now it’s time to build new stories. <3 i love you so much, and i'll always be here for you.

  5. Daisy

    Best of luck Erin – you’ve been a very wise and welcome voice in my life.
    Take care from a bruised daisy over the ocean.

  6. Marissa Mayer

    Thank you so much for writing. You have inspired me and my own blog, Depressed But Blessed, immensely. I pray for you, and that God will continue to give you strength day after day. Much love to you and blessings to your future.

  7. Ela

    I am so sorry to hear this news, as I love your blog dearly. However, you need to take care of yourself, and I completely understand that. Good luck to you!

  8. Roma

    Hi Erin,

    I’m sad that you’re unable to continue with this wonderful blog, but I totally understand – your health and well-being comes first and rightfully so. I wish you the best and who knows, maybe someday you’ll start this back up again…..and if not, that’s okay too

    Hugs,
    Roma

  9. Kati

    Erin, thank you so much for your incredible strength and bravery in writing this blog in the first place. Your decision to move on comes from the same strong place. I know I’m not alone in that I will continue to refer to your past entries (and the full collection of your zines that I own!) when I need to feel like someone else understands. Thanks again, and I hope to come across your art in other venues in the future.

    Kati

  10. Hanna

    I’m sorry for the tough times :( I hope you find what you need to heal and I hope the transition to a new chapter in your life is one of ease. Nothing will take away how you have already helped people. I wish you more than well :)

  11. Pouria

    Sending you healing thoughts Erin.
    I lost a friend to depression and since then I made it my mission to do something about the space. We have built Paralign. I would love to write a guest blog post for you or have you write an article for our blog. I really look forward to hearing back from you

  12. Wendy Love

    I have only recently found your blog and believe you have something to offer.
    But I do understand a bit of what you are going through.
    Breaks can help.
    Might I just encourage you to hold onto the blog and the domain name for a year or two?
    I let my blog go and as I reached a new place in my recovery journey I was ready to write once again. Managed to resurrect my blog but having let the domain lapse made re-entry quite challenging.
    Like you I reverted to fiction writing for awhile and that was good too.
    Just saying that with mental illness it is common to change your mind so don’t make any major changes based on how you feel, until you’ve felt that way for a really long time.
    Does that make any sense? I mean this to be encouragement, not criticism, I hope it is coming across that way.

  13. Michelle Louise

    I’ll miss reading your posts. I wish you all the best in your recovery process and admire you for the courage you showed in sharing your journey with us! Many blessings!!

  14. Chad McCarty

    Hey Erin. It’s Chad. We had a new member show up to our group therapy last night; she’s such a sweetheart.

    She called me today because she was volunteering in the hospital and was feeling quite low and needed to get out of her head. I sent her the link to your heartwarming blog in hopes that it would help and inspire someone like herself as much as it had me.

    I was not expecting this. I’m so sorry. I know your blog has been your lifeline and an immense aid to us fellow sufferers. I’m sorry to hear that you have to move out as well. It made me tear up.

    You’re such a beautiful, strong, and inspiring woman Erin. This is coming from someone who has been through the ropes myself and I know when we have that one thing in the darkness that we can latch onto (for me it has been welding), we grab it and white-knuckle it and hold onto it for dear life.

    I’m optimistic about your change. Sometimes change is what we need. I’m optimistic about a lot of things nowadays as I am finally recovering after 8 long, grueling years of numbness and despair.

    It’s not easy; it’s like EVERYTHING is coming back to me, both the good and the bad. Life is hard on the other side too, but I’m grateful that I’ve found my way out of “The Pit”.

    I’m going to do great things with my newfound freedom. I think of you often. You have been one of the inspiring figures in my life who has helped me in more ways than I can count. And I can count to a million if I had the time to do so. :P

    I’m going to start a blog with a soul mate of mine whom is also a talented writer. I want to continue your legacy; or at the very least start my own.

    YOU WILL write that damn book and I’m going to make DAMN SURE that I will be the first to get a signature from you; else I will hunt you down and grab your hand and guide the pen and write it for you.

    You are oh so exquisitely beautiful, strong, admirable, inspiring, creative, caring genuine and much appreciative on this planet amongst a host of other things.

    My love for you and others with mental illness is just the fuel I need to do what I need to do in order to leave my impact on this cruel and callous world.

    Thank you for everything that you have given to me.

    You are a both a blessing and a gift to this planet.

    I love you so much (tearing up again [the good kinda tears]), and I’m ALWAYS here if you need me.

    Take care of yourself and never stop being YOU.

  15. Sarah Marino

    Hello Erin, I enjoy reading your blog. I wish you still blogged! However, I understand life can be unbearable sometimes, and sometimes we just have to be there for ourselves. I hope everything is going well for you now and in the future. If you ever check back on this blog I too blog about mental health awareness at mentalhealthmentalwealthsite.wordpress.com, my email is smarino@mix.wvu.edu.

  16. Alexandra

    I hope you are reading this. I know it is difficult for you to trust people now, and don’t worry, it’s perfectly normal. What you should keep in mind is that you should always look for yourself before taking care of others. You can’t help others if you are not healed. I hope my little tip helped you. Have a smiley day!

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