Sadness Builds Happiness

ErinThe Big Picture16 Comments

Okay, new rule: sadness is just happiness in its infancy.

I feel really grumpy tonight. I’m pouting, scowling, slouching, and making one killer grimace. I feel really angry about a lot of stuff. It feels like such a waste of time but I’m going to make it acceptable by believing it’s going turning into something better.

Yes, the time has come to make my own rules. Rules to live by, because living by other’s expectations and high standards and freaking resumes of qualifications are complete bullshit. I am done explaining myself to other people. I’m just going to be me and expect it to work out because I’m living my life and no one else’s.

And all this grouchy crap from the past few months, or the past fifteen years, or my whole goddamn life, it means something. It hasn’t been a waste of time. And all this nonsense time I feel like I’m pouring down the drain, trying to rebuild the productivity I had before all my stuff was stolen from my apartment, it isn’t a waste of time either.

I’m rebuilding my sandcastle to be stronger than before. It’s going to have higher walls and better security, but it’s going to have more windows and doors so I can have friends over and a breeze blowing through the room to dry the tears from my face.

All this sadness has just been happiness in the making. All along, every single moment of it. All this anger? It’s coals burning in the fire of my life.

I’m going to go cry now but my tears are watering daisies, I promise.

What rules do you want to live by?

Love Erin

ErinSadness Builds Happiness

16 Comments on “Sadness Builds Happiness”

  1. Marissa Mayer

    I’m so glad you’ve found some strength to kick your depression down and show it that you’re ready to fight it! I made that climb a few months ago, and I’m so glad I made it to the top (at least for now). You can learn more about my battle with depression and anxiety by checkig out my blog:
    Thank you so much for writing. I’m glad to know fellow authors who are ready to help defeat stigma against mental health.
    Prayers for you and your journey.


    “It’s not how you fall but how you land that counts” This always reminds me that cats always land on their feet. I have had many many things happen in my life to destroy me but I always find my feet and keep going. If I could only let the 15, 23, 29 yr old me know how far we have come and how amazing my life now is. Keep going, strength will allow you to one day look back and be proud.

  3. Stewart

    I live by my rules, and my rules alone. As a decent person, living by my rules means I am generally kind, considerate and decent. But they are my rules.

    Yes, all the sadness and anger and setbacks eventually set down as a type of compost from which peace of mind grows. I never found it useful to search for “happiness”. Absecne of unhappiness leads to a peace of mind with which I am happy.

  4. Andrenid

    I wanna live by my own rules. My only goal is just to be and more than anything to be happy. Right now Ive been free from stress, pain and sadness. I’m enjoying my new relationship to the fullest and I’m beyond tired by living up to others expectations and trying to please them. No more! Now more than ever Ive been geniunely happy. Dont care what society thinks that I need to be succesful. I’m making my own way. It maybe be more harder but hey atleast I’m enjoying it. I just want to have my peace of mind again.

  5. Hanna

    some of my rules:

    I’m here for me, I’m here for others

    It all counts

    To live is to coexist with pain

  6. Gina Marie Eaton

    My one rule is to live authentically. I don’t want to keep pretending that I’m like everyone else or that I follow the “life script”. More importantly, I want to be able to influence others to do the same. I notice that I only feel peace in my life when I’m following this rule.

    Living authentically can be hard, but it’s much harder not to.

    Thanks for the great post. I hope you feel better soon.

  7. Dominique

    Thank you so much for writing. Reading this today helped me feel a tiny bit better. I’m going to continue reading your blog. Praying for peace tonight🙏🏽

  8. D1

    Well crap! I googled depression and it took me to a post written on here in 2011. So I clicked the banner to find the most current of this blog only to find out that Erin is not gonna blog here anymore. Are there some other blogs or communities out there to read? I’ve dealt with this cramp long enough and I need some help.

  9. Iris Black

    “Nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!” It’s good to see that you’ve won the battle against depression and are motivating others do so.

    Life never stops for anyone. People will come and leave, but that should not prevent you from making the progress. Our battle is not against them but with ourselves. It’s against our fears, insecurities and weaknesses.

    Hope you continue to achieve greater things in life.

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